I have been very dilatory with my efforts to lose weight. I SAY I want to lose weight, but I don’t stick to my program, I don’t consistently track everything I eat and I am struggling. So I have decided to take a journey to try to stop sabotaging myself.
What food do I eat to excess or can’t stop eating until it is gone? I have lots of them.Why do these foods affect me in this way?
Mashed potatoes- When I was growing up, mashed potatoes were an item for a special occasion. We always had boiled potatoes, but NOT the kind that was mashed up and whipped with a little milk in it. Yum! Maybe that’s why I love them. It reminds me of special occasions.
Macaroni and cheese- Don’t know. Not a family staple and even an occasional item.
Starches- Very filling foods. I don’t remember ever going hungry as a child or adult, so why do I love starches?
Maybe depression is the reason. I have been depressed most of my life. I am on medication now, because I am tired of feeling like crying all the time. Lately it hasn’t helped very much. Anything that touches me makes me tear up. I saw a young boy yesterday at the prison. He was having his picture taken with his mom and dad (I’m guessing). He had one arm around each of them and was grinning –obviously so very happy to be with both of them- I started tearing up again. So happy or sad, thinking about my mom, I want to weep.
Am I trying to fill the hole that the depression has left in me? I don’t know.
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